Today in work, we were having a discussion regarding on of the boys that work there. He apparently is talking to a girl, and we were throwing some ideas out there on who he's talking to. Someone suggested that he was talking to a girl that hangs with a rough group uptown, and someone eventually questioned if this boy will do a sexual act. I for one stood up for the boy, saying I believe he is a better person, and will know when the right time to go down that pathway is. Another girl then said that sexual desires is prominent in men, and said that most will succumb to that desire if an opportunity ever presents itself. Much to my dismay, she demanded that I look her in the eye and tell her straight up that if the girl I have feelings for makes a move on me, would I be able to resist?
One of the adults we worked with tonight threw their two cents on my situation. She said she believed I had a strong will and good morals, and would not succumb to my innate desire and to respect her for who she is. What she said is spot on...that is how I truly feel. After the whole situation blew over, I started to think on what was said.
We each have our own individual views on the many different aspects of life. Whether it's as controversial as religion, or as simple as eating habits, we each seem to have our own personal take on things that help develop our character. Our morals are a key defining factor that make our personal generalization. A character with few/poor morals will be very easy to point out. That being said, someone who has many/pure morals will also be easy to identify.
What are your morals, and do they help you as you go through your daily activities? Do your morals present themselves daily, or are they only circumstantial? Do you even follow your morals?
At work, I witness people talk about things I frown upon on a daily basis. I am forced to listen to these people talk about sexual acts, alcoholic behavior, and drug prominent extravaganzas everyday. Each time I hear these people talk about these things, I feel more and more disgusted on how they waste away doing these things. On the other hand, I appreciate my own moral for not going down a path similar to theirs.
From my own personal experiences, I also noticed that those who have morals of pure intention get criticized much more than they deserve to be. Those who live a life of disgust tend to vent their anger on those who are living successfully...hoping to drag them down to their level. Why? Probably through jealousy. If you see someone living a life free of the troubles that you are faced with because of a poor call on your part, how would you feel? Would you wish that you had developed strong morals and avoided this critical error?
I honestly try to live my life in a way to help others. It makes me happy to see others smile...knowing that I impacted their life in a positive way. When other negative forces come into the picture hoping to bring me...as well as those around me down, I can't help but feel anger. But my personal take on all this remains neutral...that's their decision...to harm those around them. But my decision is to help those in need of assistance, and I try to do everything I can do achieve that personal goal. I could join those other people for a night on the town and develop bad morals. But why should I? I'm perfectly fine where I'm at. I know who I am...I don't need to pretend to be someone I'm not. My morals help define my character.
Will you let your morals define you? If yes...will it be in a good way...or a bad way? Only you can decide. Actions and beliefs are two entirely different things. You can say one thing...but go out and contradict your words. We see this everyday. But will you succumb to that horrible ploy? There is no one better than a two-face...someone who says things, but never fulfills their commitment. I have encountered people like that far more than I ever hoped. But they're out there...don't help the list grow. Stay true to who you are.
Develop good morals, and stick to them. You will achieve great things...meet great people. If people get to know the real you from the beginning, you will leave a honest impression on their heart.
Feel free to talk about your morals here, as well as your own experiences with the subject.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Sunday, July 26, 2009
The Strength of the "Heart"
I first tried to write out a blog here that went into the emotional aspect of the "heart". I found that I just couldn't compose my thoughts together without rambling. However, even though I can't really say everything I originally said, there is still one statement I wanted to delve into. It will be on a more personal level than my last post was, so keep that in mind.
I honestly find it miraculous how strong the "heart" really is. The "heart" is called many things...strong, weak, flawed, flawless...but I honestly can't seem to find the right word to call it. But one thing I now know...is how strong it can be. Throughout my days, I have encountered different experiences that made my emotions go haywire. I have been overcome with sadness and grief, struck with impulses of affection, encountered shots of anger and pain, riddled with emotional puzzles and mysteries, blissfully awarded tokens of happiness and excitement, and devastated with rejection and betrayal. Much despite the ups and downs life has to offer, I only found myself learning from each and every obstacle I came across. It's as if my "heart" picked up the various impulses that go through me in every situation I overcame.
As I saw the person I cared deeply for start her new life today, I didn't know what to expect. I dreaded to feel overcome with sadness, as it was the last thing that should be going through my mind at the time. However, even though deep down, I could feel my heart wrenching, I was overcome with joy and pride to see the one I care for make her vow. It was, in all honesty, the emotion I expected to least happen, yet it was the most prominent. Even now, as I sit here after everything is over and as I reflect on the event of the day, I still feel the same way.
What I'm trying to say is that we may never fully comprehend just how our emotions work. We may think we know their functions better than everyone else, but once you think you know the pattern, something amazing happens that blows away your expectations. Our "hearts" can be pumped with happiness...torn by sadness...overcome with love...or even slashed with hatred. But one thing that seems to become a common occurrence is how strong and durable our "hearts" become after each trial. As humans, we may never fully comprehend the forces of nature that govern the mental spectrum. Scientists may claim to have found viable data to support statistics, but what good does that do for the majority of the population? Most people prefer not to get caught up in the statistical aspect of things...and who can blame them? We live life the way we want to live it. We live and learn...that's how we mature. How do you want to define yourself? I can guarantee that your choice will impact your emotional stability for the rest of your life.
Do you want to be a caring individual? Your actions will support your choice.
Do you want to be a violent psychopath? Your actions will support your choice.
Our choices truly define who we are. As humans, we are flawed to sometimes view the darker side of things. It seems to just be the way we are...always considering the non-perfect outcomes in a non-perfect world. But what we think is not always the same as what we feel or do.
I really feel like I'm rambling on now, so let me make this ending quick. The human "heart" is much stronger than anyone could imagine. I doubt I know where to begin on the subject. I merely offer opinions. Humans are flawed on so many levels, it's not even fair to begin starting to count...as we'll never finish. But if you look through the darkness, there is a light deep inside that truly defines who we truly are. Can we control how our "heart" works? It varies really...depending on the person. Some people can...some people can't...and some people can't realize what's going on.
As for me? Well...I feel like my "heart" is set to care for the well being of others. Despite the selfish feelings that have been running through my head lately, I truly felt proud to be called that girl's friend today...as I couldn't have been more happy than I was today. So...what does your "heart" say about you?
I honestly find it miraculous how strong the "heart" really is. The "heart" is called many things...strong, weak, flawed, flawless...but I honestly can't seem to find the right word to call it. But one thing I now know...is how strong it can be. Throughout my days, I have encountered different experiences that made my emotions go haywire. I have been overcome with sadness and grief, struck with impulses of affection, encountered shots of anger and pain, riddled with emotional puzzles and mysteries, blissfully awarded tokens of happiness and excitement, and devastated with rejection and betrayal. Much despite the ups and downs life has to offer, I only found myself learning from each and every obstacle I came across. It's as if my "heart" picked up the various impulses that go through me in every situation I overcame.
As I saw the person I cared deeply for start her new life today, I didn't know what to expect. I dreaded to feel overcome with sadness, as it was the last thing that should be going through my mind at the time. However, even though deep down, I could feel my heart wrenching, I was overcome with joy and pride to see the one I care for make her vow. It was, in all honesty, the emotion I expected to least happen, yet it was the most prominent. Even now, as I sit here after everything is over and as I reflect on the event of the day, I still feel the same way.
What I'm trying to say is that we may never fully comprehend just how our emotions work. We may think we know their functions better than everyone else, but once you think you know the pattern, something amazing happens that blows away your expectations. Our "hearts" can be pumped with happiness...torn by sadness...overcome with love...or even slashed with hatred. But one thing that seems to become a common occurrence is how strong and durable our "hearts" become after each trial. As humans, we may never fully comprehend the forces of nature that govern the mental spectrum. Scientists may claim to have found viable data to support statistics, but what good does that do for the majority of the population? Most people prefer not to get caught up in the statistical aspect of things...and who can blame them? We live life the way we want to live it. We live and learn...that's how we mature. How do you want to define yourself? I can guarantee that your choice will impact your emotional stability for the rest of your life.
Do you want to be a caring individual? Your actions will support your choice.
Do you want to be a violent psychopath? Your actions will support your choice.
Our choices truly define who we are. As humans, we are flawed to sometimes view the darker side of things. It seems to just be the way we are...always considering the non-perfect outcomes in a non-perfect world. But what we think is not always the same as what we feel or do.
I really feel like I'm rambling on now, so let me make this ending quick. The human "heart" is much stronger than anyone could imagine. I doubt I know where to begin on the subject. I merely offer opinions. Humans are flawed on so many levels, it's not even fair to begin starting to count...as we'll never finish. But if you look through the darkness, there is a light deep inside that truly defines who we truly are. Can we control how our "heart" works? It varies really...depending on the person. Some people can...some people can't...and some people can't realize what's going on.
As for me? Well...I feel like my "heart" is set to care for the well being of others. Despite the selfish feelings that have been running through my head lately, I truly felt proud to be called that girl's friend today...as I couldn't have been more happy than I was today. So...what does your "heart" say about you?
Thursday, July 16, 2009
A Clouded Future
When we are all children, we love to imagine what it will be like to be an adult. And why not? A child's imagination knows no bounds. We can imagine ourselves becoming a fireman...saving innocent people from great disaster. We can imagine ourselves becoming astronauts...exploring uncharted territory in the great reaches of space. We can imagine ourselves becoming soldiers...fighting to preserve the safety and well-being of the country we live in.
A child's imagination is truly a wondrous thing. But one thing a child never thinks about is what can go wrong in the future. As we grow older and realize the true dangers of the world, we still prefer to look at a bright and prosperous future. Think about it...would you rather become a millionaire and live in Beverly Hills, or would you want to be living in a cardboard box in a Chicago alley? Obviously, no one would pick the latter, but in reality, people are forced into this situation every day.
You may be wondering why I am bringing this up in the first place. In reality, when I was a kid, I imagined becoming a fireman. I wanted to be a hero to many, an idol for the community. I wanted to rescue people from danger, and become a hometown hero. I wanted to go to school and be smart, make lots of friends. Go to college, get the best education money could buy. I would become a fireman with the highest credentials, and have no problem working my way through the ranks in the station. I would be a prime example of a successful human being.
But that's just imagination. Nothing can prepare any child for the truth, besides the truth itself. How far did I get along my childhood path? Well, I went to school, got a high school degree. Not bad. Did I make plenty of friends and graduate at the top of my class? Not even close. Well...what's next...the best college money could buy. Well, I'm going into a community college nearby under financial aid.
The point of this whole post is that there is NOTHING that can prepare us for the future. We can hope and dream all we want, but that will not bring us success. There is literally a cloud blocking the road to our future. What lays beyond that cloud? There is no way to find out. We can predict all we want, but there is no way to look past that cloud. So what do we do? Well...there are two things. We can either walk through that cloud, or not go in it at all. If you chose the latter choice, you may be suicidal. But if you chose the former option, you are practical. You hear these stories all the time talking about people living to become who they dreamed to be years ago. Well, good for them. But the truth is, most people won't be so fortunate.
Let me speak from example for a little longer. When I was a kid, did I expect to see my grandfather die and leave us when he did? Did I expect to almost lose my mom to a massive blood clot due to smoking? Did I imagine myself almost dying in a major car crash? Did I predict my dad to be diagnosed with cancer? Well...of course not. Everything I mentioned are things NO ONE would EVER wish to think about. (Well...for the most part, but I won't go into those people, as I despise them.) We are taught to have a positive outlook as children...to dream of a better tomorrow. In reality, this is a wise decision, as a child's mind is too fragile to take the truth of the world. But think about this for a minute...is it FAIR to constantly cloud anyone's judgment with the false statement: everything will be okay? That statement is used in every possible situation, mostly when everything will NOT be okay. But is sure makes us feel better...which brings us back to the very beginning, as well as the end of this philosophy.
Now, I'm no professional. I'm no researcher. I'm just a free thinker. These are my thoughts and understandings. I have gone through more stress that most people would take me for. And what have I gained from it? Experience. I have more experience at my age than some people have in their entire lifetimes. Would I rather be living in a mansion atop a cliff side facing the ocean? Maybe...it sure sounds tempting. Would I prefer to live the easy life over the one I have now? No.
This so called "easy life" is just a veil which covers the truth. It clouds the true meaning of our existence behind a curtain of cash, alcohol, drugs, and sex. All of these things sound tempting, and may govern one's mind. But would I do any of it? No. My life is unique, and I can say with a positive face that I am proud to be alive. Sure, my life is tough...I encounter problems daily. I have felt like I am alone on this Earth, trying to get by when everyone wants me to fail. I watch as people I care for leave...never to see them again. I watch as people I trusted stab me in the back. I watch loved ones start their own destinies, as I assist from the sidelines with a torn heart. Could I do without this pain? Of course. But would I hit "rewind" to undo it all just to sidestep it all? Well...I'll let you decide for yourself.
Now let me ask you something in closing. How will you face your future? Will you walk through it, knowing of the dangers that may come? Will you run through it, watching the time pass you by? Will you slowly trod through it, appreciating each and every obstacle and wonder you walk by? Or...will you stop on the road...look around...and smile....knowing that you are still alive...and knowing that there is still uncertainty ahead. What will lay ahead? Danger? Success? Love? Death? The fear of the unknown is an easy thing to catch. But the only thing that can prepare you for all of it...is the uncertainty itself. Now...I ask you. Are YOU ready to face the unknown? Our future may be clouded with uncertainty...but we don't need to face it alone. Don't ever forget that...I know I won't.
A child's imagination is truly a wondrous thing. But one thing a child never thinks about is what can go wrong in the future. As we grow older and realize the true dangers of the world, we still prefer to look at a bright and prosperous future. Think about it...would you rather become a millionaire and live in Beverly Hills, or would you want to be living in a cardboard box in a Chicago alley? Obviously, no one would pick the latter, but in reality, people are forced into this situation every day.
You may be wondering why I am bringing this up in the first place. In reality, when I was a kid, I imagined becoming a fireman. I wanted to be a hero to many, an idol for the community. I wanted to rescue people from danger, and become a hometown hero. I wanted to go to school and be smart, make lots of friends. Go to college, get the best education money could buy. I would become a fireman with the highest credentials, and have no problem working my way through the ranks in the station. I would be a prime example of a successful human being.
But that's just imagination. Nothing can prepare any child for the truth, besides the truth itself. How far did I get along my childhood path? Well, I went to school, got a high school degree. Not bad. Did I make plenty of friends and graduate at the top of my class? Not even close. Well...what's next...the best college money could buy. Well, I'm going into a community college nearby under financial aid.
The point of this whole post is that there is NOTHING that can prepare us for the future. We can hope and dream all we want, but that will not bring us success. There is literally a cloud blocking the road to our future. What lays beyond that cloud? There is no way to find out. We can predict all we want, but there is no way to look past that cloud. So what do we do? Well...there are two things. We can either walk through that cloud, or not go in it at all. If you chose the latter choice, you may be suicidal. But if you chose the former option, you are practical. You hear these stories all the time talking about people living to become who they dreamed to be years ago. Well, good for them. But the truth is, most people won't be so fortunate.
Let me speak from example for a little longer. When I was a kid, did I expect to see my grandfather die and leave us when he did? Did I expect to almost lose my mom to a massive blood clot due to smoking? Did I imagine myself almost dying in a major car crash? Did I predict my dad to be diagnosed with cancer? Well...of course not. Everything I mentioned are things NO ONE would EVER wish to think about. (Well...for the most part, but I won't go into those people, as I despise them.) We are taught to have a positive outlook as children...to dream of a better tomorrow. In reality, this is a wise decision, as a child's mind is too fragile to take the truth of the world. But think about this for a minute...is it FAIR to constantly cloud anyone's judgment with the false statement: everything will be okay? That statement is used in every possible situation, mostly when everything will NOT be okay. But is sure makes us feel better...which brings us back to the very beginning, as well as the end of this philosophy.
Now, I'm no professional. I'm no researcher. I'm just a free thinker. These are my thoughts and understandings. I have gone through more stress that most people would take me for. And what have I gained from it? Experience. I have more experience at my age than some people have in their entire lifetimes. Would I rather be living in a mansion atop a cliff side facing the ocean? Maybe...it sure sounds tempting. Would I prefer to live the easy life over the one I have now? No.
This so called "easy life" is just a veil which covers the truth. It clouds the true meaning of our existence behind a curtain of cash, alcohol, drugs, and sex. All of these things sound tempting, and may govern one's mind. But would I do any of it? No. My life is unique, and I can say with a positive face that I am proud to be alive. Sure, my life is tough...I encounter problems daily. I have felt like I am alone on this Earth, trying to get by when everyone wants me to fail. I watch as people I care for leave...never to see them again. I watch as people I trusted stab me in the back. I watch loved ones start their own destinies, as I assist from the sidelines with a torn heart. Could I do without this pain? Of course. But would I hit "rewind" to undo it all just to sidestep it all? Well...I'll let you decide for yourself.
Now let me ask you something in closing. How will you face your future? Will you walk through it, knowing of the dangers that may come? Will you run through it, watching the time pass you by? Will you slowly trod through it, appreciating each and every obstacle and wonder you walk by? Or...will you stop on the road...look around...and smile....knowing that you are still alive...and knowing that there is still uncertainty ahead. What will lay ahead? Danger? Success? Love? Death? The fear of the unknown is an easy thing to catch. But the only thing that can prepare you for all of it...is the uncertainty itself. Now...I ask you. Are YOU ready to face the unknown? Our future may be clouded with uncertainty...but we don't need to face it alone. Don't ever forget that...I know I won't.
Welcome!
I've been meaning to do one of these blogs for a while now. Time restraints has hindered my will to do so, but it's been on my mind lately, so I decided to sit down and do it. I'll be using this blog for not only hack related stuff, but also a place to dump anything I want to get off my chest. Hopefully someone will take a look at what I have on my mind, as I tend to enjoy getting into discussions whenever I have something to say.
As I mentioned before, I will post more secretive stuff regarding projects I'll be working on here as well. I may drop off a new screenshot or a new comment regarding a new feature or plot device. If you enjoy my work, pop in from time to time to see if I have revealed anything new.
As I mentioned before, I will post more secretive stuff regarding projects I'll be working on here as well. I may drop off a new screenshot or a new comment regarding a new feature or plot device. If you enjoy my work, pop in from time to time to see if I have revealed anything new.
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